Viva La Estonia- EESTI

Im so proud of my little Estonia- Eesti! Within last month we keep winning gold medals in sports!

Women's Long Jump- WE WON YESTERDAY!

Ksenija Balta, 6.87 metres - GOLD

Heptathlon- WE WON TODAY!!

Mikk Pahapill, 6362 overall points- GOLD

Skiing, 15 km- WE WON ON 21.02.09

Andrus Veerpalu, 38.54,4, GOLD

what a weather

there's some weather outside! yesterday was so warm that i wasn't wearing my coat and today is raining and snowing.... at the moment sun is shining. Welcome to Ireland!
Mostly i had indoor activities this weekend. Im sick as well and i want to be in good form next weekend as im traveling to Amsterdaaaaaaaaam!!

The Real Will

If everybody are telling you don't do it, are you still going to do it?
Can you trust yourself? Even if you know that you don't want something but you are afraid that you are not strong enough to resist? Can you resist still? Can you do the right thing?

Words are powerful. Some like to play with us like we are just a little puppets.... some don't take an interest about the feelings we have. Some are doing what they like. Because its about THEM.

There are some words that have been said and there are some things that have been done. These cannot be forgiven. Only a Real Will would help. Real Will is so strong that it can move the mountains. If we want, we could do that. Its all about believing. If you truly believe, you will get The Will. And you will get ALL.

WHATS HAPPENING..? (im upset)

Im a 23-year old girl. Yes, im saying girl as im still considering myself as a girl. Not a woman. I think i have lots of time to be a woman. he he. i like being A GIRL. A Girl who is just off doing her own Thing.

I want to be single. Not forever but for a while. At the moment im thinking "No men, no cry".
One day obviously i want to get married, to have children and house and cats. Maybe a dog as well. Goldfishes. And maybe a sheep...? Or maybe even a chickens! he heh.

Ok back to the present.... At the moment I will block ALL. When will i be ready- i dont know.
All i do, i do only for myself and noone cant do it like i want to do it. Im not ready for commitment, im not ready for considering with someone else.
Last 5 years i have been constantly in relationships (no time for myself) and none of them have worked out. And i always beleived that i have found MY LOVE. I was really ready to give everything! So much LOVE i can feel to someone! But men, they just dont appreciate this.
I was telling this couple of days ago to my friend. She said that men dont realize when they have something good in hand, and they will realize this later and then come back. Seems like its true. They start realizing things when its too late.
I cant go back.
I have been feeling SUPERGOOD last 4 weeks, i was almost over of everything, i have made lots of new friends, my inspirational levels are higher than ever and i am actually finally doing VERY good job in office.
BUT. Now something is sneaking back to my life and im getting stressed and confused and sad over this. WHy....??! Why i just cant be happy?! How can i know what i feel...
I cant be pushed away and then pulled back. Hey! Im a human. Im a 23-year old girl. I am a simple girl. Im NOT READY.

Leave me alone, back off and DONT cofuse me!

... i want to cry... Is that normal..? Or maybe this is some kind of psycopathic evil game...?

Sprrrring is almost here....!

I saw flowers outside already here in Ireland!
And its still snowing in Estonia and its so cold!

portraits 3

lalallalllalaaaaa...! i was shooting Natalie today :) Thank youuu...~!

Happy People Dancing on Planet Earth

i want to be like this guy.... ehhehehheeeeeeeeee...~!