The Head and The Neck

So there they are. Two of them. A match. Almost like a perfect match. A male and a female. They are from different societies. They like to be in control. They are so strong that they could be in charge. In charge of many many things. And they think like twins, reading almost eachothers thoughts. Which seems like perfect. But... They are both dominators. One of them has to step back, you think, or this just cant work because its too crazy. Some societies think that Women should be down and some societies have women in charge. This is the way it is. But it DOESNT have to be.

Men are the Head, but Women are the Neck. And necks are turning the heads. It sounds sneaky, i know. You might think that Necks are really in control because they show the direction? Or do you think the Heads are actually in control because they operate?

Well most of all its a team. What would be the point to be a Neck without the Head or Head without the Neck? If theres no Head then the Neck is lost and dont know where to turn and if theres no Neck then the Head cant turn. There cant be one without other.

Tomorrow Never Comes

Well... im not sure where to start today. Have been away couple of days from internet. He he. My emotions have been up and down. I used to go with a flow all the time, then i started thinking that i have to start making desicions, but now i am thinking that the best thing is to go with a flow again like im used to .. he he.
Allright. Here we go. I will start today. Not giving new year promises or not saying that im starting tomorrow... because tomorrow never comes. I will start TODAY.
I dont want to scream anymore, i dont want to cry, i dont want to fight with the stones and i dont want to be crazy and scizo. I just want to be me. Me- who am i? Im sure im not only one having this question. I will listen to my heart. My heart will tell me who i am and what do i want and what is right thing to do. No worries anymore.

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Just let it go. Stop being this crazy image in my life. Just let it go. Dont hold me back. Dont make me feel like im sick and i have to fix something. Dont make me feel like im not good enough. Dont stop me. Just let it go. Nothing really matters. There are so many more in the world. World is not small.

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I will stick to this.

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Sooo Goooood......

...is to have back my laptop!

This is Good

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INFORMATION BOOKLET


Teaching English Program
English speaking voluteers are needed to provide English lessons to Peruvian students at public schools and English schools. Students are from 6 to 20 years old and are from different levels of English language ability. Voluteers will work from Monday to Friday. 4 hours per day either in the morning or afternoon. Assist and teach English. This is what they need most help normally:

• The main goal is to improve the English pronunciation of every student
• Every volunteer has to bring down to Peru, arranged classroom games to do at the class
• You have to organize the club conversation with the English teacher.
• The club conversation is done according the grammar lessons.
• Also, you will check exams, quiz, dialogues, prctices, etc
• The first day of class, please tell the teacher to provide the books he/she uses at the class.
• Putting some time aside before each day to prepare can really make this time more enjoyable.

Fee, 4 weeks, $945 (its possible to stay 1-..... weeks)

Fee Covers:

• $200 application deposit
• 24/7 support from our staff
• Airport pick up
• Orientation
• Travel and Medical Insurance
• Accommodation
• Food (3 meals a day)
• In-country 24/7 support
• In-country administration costs
• Program supervision

Additional Costs

• Visa
• Flights
• Vaccinations
• Trips or tours you do while you are in the country
• Transfer back to the airport
• Spending money $35 per week approx.

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Cheap flight airlines:

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Yup.. thats in my future plans to do!

SnoW Butterfly

Anothe pic from Eesti! This is what we do when we have lot of snow, they are called Snow Angels or Snow Butterflies... Oh Love Snow and Miss Estonia!

SnoW in EESTI!!!!

Almost forgot! This picture is made today (?) in Estonia. WoW- the Snow!

Thanks for the picture Heili (and by the way your cat is REALLY FAT!)

:)

BHUTAN

...one of my dream locations where i wish to travel. Few years ago i read a book about it and i still remember the key sentence about this beautiful and peaceful country: "Bhutan is a happy pleace where nobody is sad. Everybody is happy. Even the dogs are happy. As soon as you get off from the plane you get happy and friendly dogs welcoming you".

Thats true. I started thinking about dogs in Estonia-the country where i am coming from. The truth is that people in Estonia are not the happiest at the moment because of the economy and history and bla bla bla. And the truth is that all the dogs are barking there all the time! Havent heard them barking so much even in Ireland.

Bhutan just seems to be one of the dream places...

Real Story

My family looks normal, it looks ok actually. But if to be honest it is not so normal after all. There is always been this different atmosfere in my family... By different atmosfere i mean psycological atmosfere, parapsycologigal if to be more particular...

When i was 16 i was planning to give out a Book. Book about Unexplainable Experiences- experiences that scientists and physics laws cant explain. I was collecting stories and experiences from different people. I was listening old women in sauna and i was interviewing different people. Everybody has their own opinion about life after death, reincarnation, parallel universes, time shifts etc. One of my best friends was absololutely against all of this. We had some really good arguements and discussions with her. Havent spoken with her now couple of years- miss her!

The magazines i was reading when i was a child were far from normal childs magazines. I used to read about near the death experiences, meditations, ufos, ghosts, angels etc etc etc....
Guess i head this kind of reading because my family was really into this. And obviously they HAD A REASON to be into this.

I met my father today and he reminded my one his strange story he has.

When he was a young boy, about 15-16, he went to the party where he met a Girl. Everybody were dancing in the hall and She was just sitting there alone and my father looked at Her and she looked pretty so he went and asked Her for a dance. So... they were dancing for a while. Unfortunately my father doesnt remember many details about this so its hard to write...
Anyway... From some point he sent Her home.. they were walking quite a while, couple of kilometers i think... until they stopped in front of the really old house , it wasnt looking really like someone could live there. My father asked a Girl: "Are you living here?", "Yes," She said. This was bit strange for my father so he kept asking "Are living here alone?", "No, not alone". "Are you living here with somebody? With your grandmother?", "No im not living with anybody," and She walked into the house. So this was little bit strange for my father. But he didnt feel awkard or anything like that.
So one week passed and my father kept thinking about this Girl and more he was thinking the more he felt that something is not right. He was even thinking about the clothes She was wearing and the way She was wearing Her hair... She was wearing a dress, oldfashioned dress, but at the time my father was young all the girls were wearing trousers and polos. Just the fashion thing at this time...
Anyway my father went back one week after the party to the house he had sent the Girl. House was still there... He met a really really old woman in the garden and he stepped closer and asked about the girl he had sent home last week. Old Lady said that she is been living for this house alone for years and havent seen any young girl as my father described. I beleive this was a Time Shift experience- will talk about this in my blog more.

This is the story my father told me and this is why i beleive this and this is why i want to know more and i want to think about these things. Because i beleive life is more than we see.
Im not looking for Answers because i know that human brain is not ready for the Answers. we only use about 25% of our brain and there like 75% more to use- its 3 times more than we use now.

End of story at the moment. This is the topic i am going to speak about here more and this is the topic i will research and i will think about.

Maybe i even can give out my book even one day...

PS. Hope you understand my English in this post and its clear enough to understand. I am improving myself :)

Damn!

Damn it! Its not enough that im thinking about you ALL the time, im even CALLING OTHER PEOPLE by your name. Damn it... Im so Hopeless.

BRAIN WRECK

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There was a Boy and there was a Girl. And thre was something that comforted their souls, this was unique and this was belonging only for that Girl and that Boy. Something really special. From dust to dawn they spent every single minute together... they shared eveything, they were laughing together like they never laughed before and they cried together like they never cried before. And so on and so on... Until... That Day. That Day came like a Judgement Day, maybe a Faith, maybe a Test or maybe... a Reality.
A Big and Thick Shadow came over. It stopped them to see, to hear and even feel. Mental Coma, a Mental Uncounsciousness. Never stop beleiveing.

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She was sent to the Earth with a Mission. She just knows as much as You do. She only knows a fact that she is on a Mission. What kind of Mission is that? Is it good.. or is it bad? Is it small or is it big...? Is it easy or difficult? What happens after the Mission? Is she going to die?
She is a Soldier but she doesnt want to be. If she could have only One Wish then she would wish to be Normal. Just like everybody else, part of a crowd. She wishes to be so normal that noone really would notice her.
But she knows that she is Special. One of the Soldiers.
She is soft, she is fragile and she is romantic. Special Soldier.

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Only Strong will Survive

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@ work. new haircut. all happy smiley and shiny. Just the Mask.

Behind the Mask... pffffffffffffffffff... continuing...

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argh. now im just angry, my mind is blocked and nothing's coming out of it. yup im emotional, yup im getting upset sometimes and yup i dont understand that Sick Humor sometimes. argh. my circle is getting full.

I started from somehere- it was a beginning of circle, now i have moved almost 360 degrees...
My next circle of my life begins soon... im not afraid. Looking forward for it. In Fact its so bloody close but i still have no idea what is going to happen... Its about 4 weeks time... BLOODY HELL.
Im not panicking
Im not panicking
Im not panicking
Im not panicking
Im not panicking

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My Failure

HA. I have to come down from the coulds now and be realistic. Just letting you all know that i failed in my Accounts Courses Exam. WoW. Accounting is just not my thing... or actually it must be the irish tax system... excuses, excuses...

But will give it another try anyway...

This is a Message and a Story

This Bird is beautiful. Very very beautiful. Nice colours and shape... this Bird is intelligent, he is funny, he is emotional, he is spontanious, he is full of life and energy...! Almost perfect i have to say...
... but this Bird is sick. No... you cant see this. Its different kind of sickness... Its deep inside in him, sometimes You dont even realise... because the Bird doesnt show this... I think this Bird is lonely. He has a dreams, deep dreams...This Bird is very special and deep thinker and dreamer... Sometimes too hard to follow. Its hard not to love this bird but ... there is a But. This Bird is sick... he doesnt show himself to anybody, thers not many who has seen The Bird. He is hidden in a secret spot. How can we find him... We want to call this Bird to catch the Mothership before it leaves him behind. Mothership loves this Bird... deeply. Mothership wants to take this Bird and never let him go... But even Motherships cant wait forever, even if they have so much Love...
There are one Mothership and many Birds, but only one of them is Special. Only one of them CAN BE Special.
1,2,3,4,5,6.... and so on... seconds... seconds becoming for minutes, minutes are becoming for hours and hours for days... Motherships time is ticking... Time is ruthless- it can be your enemy or it can be your friend... Mothership wants to teach her Bird how to be friends with Time.

Keeps Turning

THIS is not about YOU anymore. THIS is about ME now. Yes... oh yes... it is about ME. About my soul, my life, my tears, my laugh, my bed, my WORLD. Trying to take this away..? Well. I am who i am , i feel what i feel and hear what hear and i see what i see.
There was a question. The hardest question you can think of... question WHY?
Why world keeps turning
Why do we eat
Why birds are singing
Why love hurts

I Love You. No... I mean I Love You. I mean YOU, My World... Planet Earth, the Sun, all the Colours, Music and Art...
Art of Life
Art of Love
Art of Nature
Art of Human Mind
Art of Philosphy
Anything you can think of.

...if i stop, i loose my feelings... If i stop, i loose my honour and if i stop, i loose respect.

World keeps turning... Never stops. Evrything keeps going and everything goes around.
Life goes around
Feelings...
Emotions...
Pain and happyness...

Some people are staying, some people are going... Noone shouldnt be left alone, everyone should have someone...

It never stops, deal with it, you have the tools.

How to be Happy

...this is a good question i guess...
this below is kind of good article actually... i think its possible to train yourself to be happy but most of all it is in your head and its positive thinking- it is true, doesnt matter how stupid it sounds. Some of these points are funny too....! Heeeeeeee...! Enjoy!

• Be as healthy as you can
  
• Recognise that happiness is a state of mind and not something which can be defined objectively.
  
• More importantly than anything else, live with a partner whom you love and respect and who feels the same about you. Kiss and cuddle and compliment often and regularly buy unexpected little gifts.
  
• Have a cat or a dog. Stroke often.
  
• Keep in close touch with relatives and a small circle of friends.
  
• Conversely, if there is a person in your life who is a negative influence and who is dragging you down in some way, don't be afraid to get remove such a person from your life.
  
• Smile a lot. Smiles make you miles better - and you smiling will make others smile.
  
• Laugh a lot.
  
• Say what you mean and mean what you say. Honesty really is the best policy.
  
• Be politely assertive. Say how you feel and explain what you want. Friends and colleagues can't be mind readers.
  
• Give lots of compliments. You will make others feel good about themselves and find that this gives you pleasure too.
  
• Give small gifts to your friends. To give is even more pleasurable than to receive.
  
• Spend less than you earn- good to say, we all trying to do this!
  
• Use your credit card as a convenient way to pay for your major expenditures on a monthly basis - not to obtain credit at an outrageous level of interest.
  
• Don't gamble. There's enough uncertainty in your life without you adding more - and anyway, in the long run, you can't win. (A little flutter on the lottery is allowed.)
  
• Give regularly to the charities of your choice.
  
• Wear the most expensive after-shave (usually men!) or perfume (usually women!!) you can afford.
  
• Get your hair done. This will always make you feel better about yourself.
  
• Surround yourself with pleasant smells. Have flowers, pot-pourri or scented candles in most rooms of the house and in your office.
  
• Stay close to nature.
  
• Read a quality newspaper on a daily basis. Learning is fun and the easiest way to learn is to check out news and features each day so that, over time, your knowledge and interests grow and deepen.
  
• Take a weekly or monthly magazine reflecting a personal interest. You'll come to really look forward to each new issue, like a visit from a friend.
  
• Read regularly and widely. Good fiction will widen your vocabulary and put you in touch with your emotions, while a range of non-fiction will extend your knowledge and interests.
  
• Listen to some good music.
  
• Treat yourself often to something 'cheap and cheerful' that you like - chocolates, flowers, a magazine, a cake, a CD. It costs little and you're worth it.
  
• Stretch yourself physically. At the mimimum, regularly go for a brisk walk - it will raise your spirits. If you can, join a gym and take more vigorous exercise - it will make you feel good and lengthen your life.
  
• Stretch yourself mentally. Go on courses on different subjects - they don't have to be academic courses (they can be at your local college) and they don't have to be long (they can be as short as a day or even half day).
  
• Stretch yourself geographically. Go to places you've never seen before. Even in your home town, try taking a different route than usual and notice the different locations that you've never seen before.
  
• Do something you've never done before, like visiting a particular art gallery or museum or going to a ballet or opera (or even just taking a different route to a familiar location).
• Keep a diary or journal. It will give structure to your life, an easy way to revisit good times, and a reminder that bad times don't last.
  
• Take lots of photos. You'll love looking at happy times and old friends.
  
• Have a political vision on how to create a better world - and do something to make that vision more of a reality.
  
• One way of dealing with a difficult problem is to imagine how you will feel about that problem next week, next month, next year. Now try to bring those feelings into the present. It will give you a sense of perspective. Problems rarely look so formidable in retrospect.
  
• If you are uncomfortable or frightened about a situation, try to take yourself to a mental safe place which you have previously created in your mind and where you feel relaxed and comfortable. It might be an imaginary garden or beach or just an image of your study or bedroom.
  
• Whatever your age, it's never too young to start planning your retirement. Regularly increase your mortgage repayments and pension contributions - this is a sensible use of the money you don't need for current expenditure and it will increase your longer-term lifestyle options.
  
• Make a will, detailing the arrangement for your funeral and the dispersion of your assets. The only thing certain about your life is that it will end, so have peace of mind that the circumstances that follow your death will as far as possible be as you wish them to be.
  
• Make arrangements to donate your organs on your death. That way, even your leaving of this world will give something special to others.
  
• If all else has failed, view this video: click here
  

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Can you hear me?

Can you hear me ...? Can you hear me... im screaming...! Im screaming but your eyes are still pointed away... its like you are looking through me. You see me but you cant hear me... even if im screaming...
When i was a teenager i always used to have these bad dreams that im trying to run but my legs dont move or im trying to look but my eyes are getting foggy or im trying to speak but my throat is stuck. Now i know what does it mean.


...just realised half an hour later that... sometimes you should take deep breath and shut up if you want someone to hear you... sometimes you should back off and go back before you can go forward. If you go down then later you go more higher again...

Life is more than meets the eye

Many children remember their past lives-spontaneously, without hypnosis or prompting. Some as young as two and still in diapers blurt out, "I remember when I died before" or "My other mommy had curly hair". They often describe details that they had no way of learning in this life. Some remember startling personal details of relatives who died before they were born.
Only recently here in the West have children's past life memories been researched and documented. These memories have long been accepted in other cultures. Now we know that these memories happen naturally to young children in all countries of the world, regardless of the beliefs of their parents. They can happen any time to any very young child, but parents often don't notice because they don't know it's possible or don't know what to look for.

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If there's only a fixed number of souls, how has the world population increased?

This is often heard from people who don't believe in reincarnation. First, if people don't believe in reincarnation, why would they believe in a limited number of souls? And one has to ask such people why they really expect that there is a limit to life within in the universe. However having said that, it is interesting to note that as man's population has increased, the animal kingdom has gradually been decimated - and that is where some mystics say human souls gradually evolve upwards from. (Note the most plentiful forms of life on the planet are insects, and think of the amount of forest humankind has destroyed since the dawn of civilisation.) Also of note, highly advanced Yogis state that life exists on many other places in the unlimited expanse of the universe, in which case the planet Earth would be only one of many places for souls to inhabit.

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... Should i go forward... or should i stay... or maybe i should go with a flow... or should i go back...? Life is a Task and everybody has to find a solution themselves because everbody have tools for this...
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My soul is as messy as my house...! I need to get out of my shell and let it go... Im a woman now- i have to be smart an make a decisions... Thank you for teaching me- maybe not now, but maybe we'll see you next lifetime.
I will be ok and i will be back soon- stronger, happier and healthier. I have learnt not to give up on my dreams for anyone. All you can do is just for yourself. Sometimes you have to be selfish.
Another cigarette another sleepless nights and another day... for now.
At least i can do now is to clean my messy.... house.

Feels Sad... (Sunday AfterNooN)

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I'm feelin' high
My money's gone
I'm all alone
To much to see, the world keeps turnin'
Oh what a day, what a day
You rush into destruction'
Cuz you don't have nothing left
The mothership can't save you
So yo ass is gon' get left
If we were made in His image
Then call us by our names
Most intellects do not Believe in God
But they fear us just the same
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