my secret language

i am so excited.

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sometimes im waking up in middle of the night and im thinking where am i. im thinking if im in my home in estonia, or i am in my grandmothers house. sometimes i wake up and i find myself in a random place in europe, or i find myself in my room in ireland or sometimes i really am in my mothers or grandmothers house in estonia.

sometimes when im half sleep and im in estonia, i start talking in english.sometimes when im reading my old diary's which are written in estonian but even if im in ireland i start speaking estonian.

i am thinking mostly in english. i speak english every day. i have a terrible estonian accent. i am an estonian. i dont mind to be estonian. this is a small country in europe and noone really knows about it...

its like i have a secret language here in ireland....


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Minu salakeel, millest keegi aru ei saa- väljaarvatud eestlased muidugi... heh he.