brown paper bag

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Step to the rhythm made out of brown paper, sounds entering of a different nature,

Rhythms get greater, And the rhythms they get greater, Yes another rough-a-tough

Four for the chaser, New configuration, New riff and New Structure

Built on the frame that'll hold the room puncture, Tight

We wrap it up, it's wrapped, tightly.

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Mmmmmmmmmmmm

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It lives, The bass is the army that it gives.

When we apply the breaks, There'll be no skids.

Just more elements to continue as we glide.

Dimensions & The Measurements and the evidence you will find

Change it, rearrange it so its regularly updated

Hits from every angle so expected the un-expected

Represent the fusion of the mind and stay connected

The star that is presenting, The size of the markers been indented

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Delivering the style we give you so that means a mention

In your direction is the baron that we aimed, ascension

Instead the way the floor the stunner made a we invention

And then you get your moneys worth before you've even sensed it

Make you think a four figure for the whole nation

Send it down so one we know it with no discrimination

Like a safe with 50 locks, as many combination

No matter which way that you turn you reach the same destination.

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The fullness of the spectrum, 360 keep it circling

Deep inside the flow is where its working it

Under lease, submerging it, time to make it go deeper

Way past the point that blows holes in your speaker

Under and over, take it over and under

First you get the lightning and then you get the thunder

The sound is the music and the music is the feature

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Mmmmmmmmmmmm

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Step to the rhythm made out of brown paper, sounds entering of a different nature,

Rhythms get greater, And the rhythms they get greater, Yes another rough-a-tough

Four for the chaser, New configuration, New riff and New Structure

Built on the frame that'll hold the room puncture, Tight

We wrap it up, it's wrapped, tightly.

''

Mmmmmmmmmmmm

BANG BANG

i was watching alpha dog last night. commercial shit i thought. i took this movie because i wanted to see something where i do not have to think and wanted to see something that is just easy going and keeps my mind away from my thoghts. i watching and watching and thinking that oh i am sooo over from these gangsta blabla movies. ok, movie was going on and on and they were going to kill the boy in a movie and i thought no way they wont do this and it will have this nice american happy ending story and thats that. BUT. THEY KILLED THE BOY. and i found out this was a true story actually. however killers got punishments they deserved,but it is one of the sadest killing stories i know.
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theres another movie that made me emotionally crazy. blood diamond. i have seen it 3 times and every single time at the end of the movie i have been crying my eyes out.

world could be such a beautiful place to live but theres so many awful things going on. deep human feelings. betraying. suspicions . love. hate.

im thinking what the hell im doing here? why the hell im here? what is the point to be here? i need to know who i am.

are these kind of movies necessary? most people probably watch them and forget them after couple of hours. but should we really forget them? can these movies make world better place? these stupid american movies like alpha dog or blood diamond that are costing millions of dollars to make. money is such a powerful thing.

im really thinking whats going on. who am i? 23 year old girl working in office. doing more than im getting payd. i have a boyfriend whos not with me at the moment and we kind of love each other which is hard to beleive sometimes. then i have a father in ireland. rest of my family is in estonia- my brother whos not doing much, my mother whos allright at the moment, my grandmother whos too much worried about everything all the time. and then my friends who are kind of allright people actually. at least i have been lucky to meet some really good peoplein my life but the problem is im not seeing them much which is crap really.

so here i am again. trying to get somewhere and feeling like im getting somewhere but then BANG! VA VA VOOOOM! and thats it. Just stops. Just like that.

Smeagol vs Gollum

If you know even a little bit about LOTR then you should know that Smeagol and Gollum are the same. Its Gollum's scizophrenic conversation with himself. Argument between Bad Himself and Good Himself. Reminds me myself at the moment :D

Gollum: We wants it, we needs it. Must have the precious. They stole it from us. Sneaky little hobbitses. Wicked, tricksy, false!
Smeagol: No. Not master!
Gollum: Yes, precious, false! They will cheat you, hurt you, LIE.
Smeagol: Master is our friend!
Gollum: You don't have any friends; nobody likes you!
Smeagol: I'm not listening... I'm not listening...
Gollum: You're a liar and a thief.
Smeagol: No!
Gollum: *Murderer*.
Smeagol: Go away!
Gollum: "Go away?" [Gollum laughs as Smeagol begins crying]
Smeagol: I hate you, I hate you.
Gollum: Where would you be without me, gollum, gollum? I saved us! It was me! We survived because of me!
Smeagol: [stops crying] Not anymore.
Gollum: What did you say?
Smeagol: Master looks after us now. We don't need you anymore.
Gollum: What?
Smeagol: Leave now, and never come back!
Gollum: No!
Smeagol: Leave now, and never come back! [Gollum screams in frustration]
Smeagol: LEAVE! NOW! AND NEVER COME BACK! [Gollum is silent]
Smeagol: [looks around] We told him to go away... and away he goes, Precious! Gone, gone, gone! Smeagol is free!

constantly tired

Why am i so tired all the time...? Even if i have been sleeping well. It takes like 2 hours and 4 cups of coffees to wake up at work.
No, its not right and its not healthy. Jeeeesus i dont know if i need a vitamins or what?!
Seriously i think i need to change my life. If i quit this job i have now i promise im not gonna be so serious for a while. I will travel and see the world before :) Oh looking forward to it. Hopefully economy will go better too.

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by the way i will get internet tomorrow.

Hi. Its Berit here. Emotional Breakdown. he he.

... i hate this all at the moment. I hate everything. Im disappointed. You can be so good and nice to someone but they still turn their back to you and not even bother to say anything anymore. Not even a word. What a behaviour. Most of all they hurt themselves and noone really cant take these people seriously anymore.
Shit. Shit. Shit. Fucking hate this all. I hate i had to go though this stupid road. Fucking hate. Hate. Hate.


...No. Im not gonna be cold bitch now. Not at all. If i dont have to hear anything about you anymore i will be fine. Seems like its never gonna work out.
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...............im bloooody sad. Sad. Sad. Ahhh. Time will heal. Please dont contact. Please leave me alone. I have to get over. Its just sooo hard. Its so sad. Its so unreal. Why?Why?Why?

Not to think. Not to think. Not to think. Thats what im going to be. I wont think anymore.

Ahhhhh.. some release.

Had a busy day at work today. And very funny day. Im always finding these days funny when im overloaded with work. Its just a stupid reaction to start laughing in critical situations. Had to manage managers at work today. Heeee....! And i got the point how can you realise who is born to be manager and who is not. Im not a manager... yet. But today was wierd day where i had to manage managers. Its was a simple thing but it was brining out their character.
Sometimes if you give something to do for someone then some people are trying to understand for what and why they are doing this, but some people are just doing everything you told them to do. No questions. Like a monkeys.. or robots. So today i realised how hard is to manage managers. Heeeee...! But anyway. I enjoy being busy. Especially today. Especially for next.. hmm.. many many months.



And i promise. I wont write too much depressing emotions here anymore. Theres much more in my life than that.

LOVE YOU! PLEASE UNDERSTAND! LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU

Grr..

.. i hate when i cant write into my blog. So busy. And no internet at home. grr. I need this blog.

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Theres no end and no beginning in the circle

After i went home from work yesterday i was so tired that i just had couple of pices of chinese bread and a cigratte and lied down to bed. I wasnt really sleeping but i was kind of drifting beetween conscious and unconscious... this is the wierdest you can get. So my mind was free and fully up and running if i can say so. My mind was leading my thoughts to the beginning of everything. Yup sometimes im getting these days when im thing like this he he. So beginning of everything. My mind had a question "When people started hurt each other?" Who was the first person to hurt other person. And how this happened. Im guessing that this is human nature. But still i was imagnining the situation how somebody first hurt other person. I was imagining the times when people werent fully developed yet. I was even thininking about monkeys nowadays. Have you seen them hurt each other? Im not sure. But people's (Homo Sapiens) mind has emotions and higher needs than just eating and seleeping and having sex. They need attention, they need love and care, need to improve themselves. We all need this. But why do we hurt each other? Is it because we need always get something we want? I dont beleive that people are bad. I beleive theres something good in everyone. People just express themselves differently and sometimes just doesnt know how to deal with things. I am not going to speak about murderers and rapers here at the moment. This is another topic and i dont want to fell out from my current point.
Anyway. Why do we hurt each other? Even if we say we love. I guess love is something very few people have experienced because noone ever cant hurt the person he/she loves. Love is magical feeling and higher energy.
But still. People hurt eachother all the time. How this all started? I was imagining animal world. Do they hurt each other? Ofcourse they do! This is part of surviving. They have to do this.
So now im thinking i guess people have to do the same thing. Maybe they need to survive. Its hard to be a Homo Sapiens as we are created to be intelligent. And this is destroying us.
Look at the world. We have developed medicine (not as developed as old Egyptians had but still..) and we can save eacothers lifes (which animals cant do) but on the other hand we are destroying orselves. Tons of rubbish, tons of waste for example...
At the end of the day we are still in ancient process. And this is natural choice. Its simple- only strong will survive.
I could talk about disabled people here and wars and killing prisoners and abortions. There are so many different views about this. But like i already said at the end of the day we will always be part of natural choices and we keep hurting each other and we keep destroying ourselves. We dont know why it is necessary but nothing happens without reason. Everything is put in a place in a System. I cant see Human beings go so intelligent that they can fight with this- we all die one day and then born again. And thats how life is circulating. There is endless circles in life- theres no beginning for this and theres no end for this. Human brain cant understand this system.
Well i hope this makes sense what im trying to say here. He he my head is full of thoughts that i just have to orginise myself more and more so hopefully i can start giving better reviews soon.
I have no internet now at home so im kind of away from at the mo. Hope to get it installed soon.